As transcribed from my journal, God’s words to me inspired these words…May they inspire you.

I See You

I see you… I see you…

Did you know that you inspire?

I see you… I see you…

Each longing and desire

I know you… I know you…

You are my child and my bride

I know you… I know you…

I know the reasons you try to hide

I hear you… I hear you…

Each passive prayers and persistent plea

I hear you… I hear you…

I answer that you might return to me

I do care… I do care…

Although it seems at times I don’t

I do care… I do care…

I won’t give up on you… I won’t

You are treasured… you are treasured…

Your joy is laughter to my ear

You are treasured… Oh so treasured…

To watch you fall inspires tears

Now your free… free to fly…

Now’s the time… here’s your chance

Spread your wings… seize the sky

Come join in this great romance

Take your time… walk the line…

Live this adventure with me

Should you doubt… this plan of mine…

Just know that I see... I see.

I awoke with the sun this morning. Most enjoyable to sit and be silent. I will not lie, my world has been flipped by the Son let me tell you. Sometimes it takes a rising sun as a reminder. My apathy seems so distant at these times. I rejoice. I love. It's really cold outside. Really cold I tell you. Devotional outside lasted two minutes before I had to come inside. But the spectacle moved and inspired me, to write words... express emotions that have been corroding a spirit that was orignally inspired by the Spirit. Somewhere I lost sight. "I do believe... but Lord, help my unbelief." - Rev. George Mueller. You know that beautiful feeling of getting up really early and being so awake... so ready for the day. I think that's from God. In fact I'm sure of it. No other God could move me from such a bad day like yesterday into the beauty of today.

"Morning Glow is long past due." - Stephen Schwarz, Pippin

It is long past due. And long awaited. I beg of you, do not pass from this moment in silence. Apathy is a foe that likes to make us think we're alright and that we've got some stuff going for us, so we sit and waste away. Well, as of late, I have been foolishly wondering if anything is going for me, but a revelation has been given unto me... does it matter in the long run? No. Absolutely not. My desires must be centered. Focused on Christ. Him alone. That really sank in for me this morning. It has caused resolve as well as resign. I don't have what it takes. And I won't if I keep relying on myself to have what it takes instead of on the One who gives me what it takes.

These are merely words. From your side of the screen they may seem bland. I wish you could witness the crisp frigid disposition of a morning like this one. Deathly cold, but full of beauty. The sun seemed to radiate life from its rays. I don't know if the physical temperature was altered by it, but I'm certain the spiritual one was.

Take the time. Wake up. Arise from the dead.

Be of courage. Let him embolden your passions whate'er they may be.

May the Son reveal. May the sun remind.

~Alexander

What a joy... sound... lights... experience... beauty... character... strength. Within the moment. Take a day of sunshine, and let it permeate into your very soul. Don't doubt, just run.... frolic, but not too fast... savour the moment don't let it pass. The time is now, not then. Don't wait... just live. speak... listen... watch... capture... a moment... again.

What grace has denied you now, I pray will reveal itself in all of its splendour later. Suppose I wouldn't wait... and miss the beauty of waiting??? absurd. I will... let... go...

A beauty to move me, a goodness improve me. A passion to reach me, a lesson to teach me. Haha... to be broken and utterly powerless to control. It's what I seek it's what I know. A "song that everyone can sing."

To be in a river. and feel the current flowing through your toes. It beckons you to run to follow its throws. We hold back. We fear being swept away. Do we fear the adventure? absurd. Let it come with all of its storms. Do not fear the storm... embrace the challenge. It causes one to pause and see the beauty within the storm. I laugh. it does inspire awe and humility. That is what I seek... that is what I know.

Now for ties and an excess of questions. Adieu.

~ The Man of Little consequence 

Currently Listening Love Is The Greatest Revenge By Tremolo Will You wait up for Me? see related

I Update. Just Stop!! Why don't I just stop... to examine myself? What is my purpose... my mission statement... haha. I want it to be so much more than this. You ever have those days where you never fully wake up? Where the whole world is moving around you and you feel like you should be keeping up. Then you start to feel guilty because you think, "What am I doing wrong?" You look out the foggy window and the sky is as gray as your demeanor. You wanna get up and move, but you can't seem to find the motivation. Again, it's not depression, it's just not a day of celebration. The morning star just doesn't seem to shine in your soul. God's there. I know he is. I know he's got purpose and hope and future, but I don't have any of the answers and I find myself wanting them now.

In Alice Through the Looking Glass, there's a point where Alice meets the White King and he asks her to keep an eye on the road ahead to see who might come along. She gazes into the distance and all she can see is nobody. The king wistfully explains that he wishes he had her youthful sense of sight. He barely has enough vision to see the somebodies that come along the road, much less the nobodies. This was a proverbial blow to the face. I wonder... I wonder... what are the subtler things that God is trying to reveal to me?

Time seems to move too fast. I'm faced with a lot of decisions lately that I don't feel I have the wisdom to make. I don't want to come on here and feel like I'm complaining to any and all who read this. Again, I understand that I have a purpose, but I find myself increasingly longing for something concrete that I can cling to for my inspiration of life. I want definites, and God is telling me to wait for them.

The daily life is the focus now. I get up on my "sure-footed horse" only to find that it stumbles and I fall... I fall, but I get up because I am called to get up and press onward. I have no motivation to move save for the still, small voice which doth beckon me to continuously take up my cross, and die to myself.

I found inspiration yesterday in a conversation with a seasoned man of God. We're talking' a guy who's been through some battles and still has the scars to show for it. He explained how he's been a part of Spanish/English church in Detroit, Michigan. The church has been through a lot and it has never really grown in the most proper sense of the word due to lack commitment and a congregation that struggles daily with just getting by I was floored when I asked him how he has chosen to live his life. He replied, "I have chosen to live out my calling in the places where I find the most needs. If that means in a church which may not ever get anywhere as far as numbers, so be it." I was taken aback by this. But then, growth isn't about numbers is it. So what if these people never develop into the most "Spiritually healthy" congregation. They're just trying to get by on a day-to-day basis. If God can be a part of their daily struggles, I think that's growth enough.

I've been writin' a little poetry lately. I'll post some later.

"I am going to a place, where the porch light's on in case you forgot to stay awake for me."

~Alex

Currently Listening Josh Groban By Josh Groban The Prayer - featuring Charlotte Church see related

Morning calls. I hear its sound.

Get out of bed. and hit the ground.

I'm tired now. so tired still

a shallow heart. an outstretched will.

Give you the day. give you my all.

The banner's worn. The mountain tall.

But I'll climb on with you beside

So be my strength. Be my guide.

I cannot fell the looming foe

Without thy hand to help me so

So now I rise to face the day

That you'll go with me all the way

"Let this be our prayer... just like every child. Lead us to a place, guide us with your grace... give us faith so we'll be safe"

May the peace and strength of the Lord be with you as you go through the day.

~Alex